Episode 19: Sober AF: What It Really Means to Live Fully Alive
One year ago this week, I stopped using cannabis—after more than twenty years of pretty much daily use. Combined with my two-plus years alcohol free, I can now say what I never expected to say: I'm fully, completely, Sober AF.
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In this episode, I'm sharing the honest, nuanced story of this journey—including the role cannabis played as a genuine bridge in my early sobriety, what finally shifted a year ago, and what I actually believe is happening energetically when sensitive, deeply feeling people turn to substances to cope.
Because I think there's a Human Design thread running through all of it that nobody is talking about. As a Projector with a lot of open centers, I spent decades using substances as an energetic pressure valve—a way to manage the overwhelm of absorbing everyone else's energy. This isn't a story about willpower. It's a story about healing so deeply that the coping mechanisms naturally fell away.
We also go into: what fully sober actually feels like (spoiler: it's really good), how sobriety clarified my Splenic Authority, and a reflection question to sit with about what you might be using to numb your own life—and what might be waiting for you on the other side.
IN THIS EPISODE, WE EXPLORE:
Why cannabis was genuine medicine in the early alcohol-free chapter
What shifted after 20+ years of daily use—and why it wasn't forced
The Projector energetics of numbing and open centers
What gets clearer when you stop turning down the volume on your life
A reflection question for examining your own numbing patterns
Because you deserve to live as the fullest version of you!
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